Monday, June 26, 2006

His Mother's Son

Being the youngest in the family, it is really not hard to be labeled as Mama’s Boy, and I believe I am. In fact, I was even proud of it at a time. Children usually go to their father for strength and security, to mothers for comfort and assurance. I found them both on my mother. Even now that I already have a family of my own, I still go back to our old house, just to feel the security that I used to feel when I was still a child. I’m not the type of son who kisses and embraces his mother, I wasn’t really demonstrative… though I wish I were. Neither does my mother. But we both know, words need not be spoken, actions need not be done, just to show and prove the bond that ties us. There is the unspoken feeling, between a mother and son that only they could know and feel. When I feel low, and my back is against the wall, with nowhere to run to – I would go to my mother’s house. I would not talk to her, I wouldn’t say anything – I would just stay there, sit in the sofa.... silently, as if just waiting for the time to pass by. After a few minutes, I would get up, and go to my own house and somehow I feel much better.

This morning before going to work, I passed by her house. My son needs his parents in school, but I could not go because I need to work and neither can his sick mother. As always, I would rely on own mother, who I know, would not let me down. I would ask her to go to my son’s school in our behalf. I was not prepared for the news that she broke to me though – “Roy, my Visa has already arrived. I would be leaving on July 6.” I wasn’t able to respond… and as if not hearing anything, I asked her if she could attend to our son’s problem in school. Afterwards, I stood up and proceeded on my way to work.

I knew she is to leave soon, I knew she is taking care of her papers – passport, ID’s, medical exam, visa and all. My sister in Canada is asking her to go there so that she could take a much needed vacation. After siring nine children and taking care of them, and still taking care of her children’s children – I am in agreement that she deserved it. But, why are tears almost falling from my eyes while on the way to work? I tried so hard to hold them because I was riding in a public utility vehicle. But I knew, I feel, they’re there. Then, I started asking – Why?! Why would she want to leave me at the predicament that I am in now? And, why am I acting so selfish now?

You see, in my more than ten (10) years of married life, I have never been as often in our old house as these last two years. I would often go there, look for her, just to say my wife’s dialysis session would be due again and I haven’t raised enough funds for it. And as sure as the sun rises in the east, she would do something, take care of the problem, and she’ll give to us the much needed money for my wife’s dialysis. And that is an understatement! To mention in details, everything that she has done to us, especially to me lately, would probably take more than ten (10) pages of single spaced, size 12 font of writings.

In two weeks time, she’ll be leaving. Yes, she would be back soon after six (6) months. It’s just temporary. She will not totally abandon me. I still believe she deserved the much needed vacation. In the meantime, where would I run for strength? Where would I go for comfort? Selfish? Yes, it is. Because I am. But most all, because I do need her… NOW! More than ever.

Yes, I was a Mama’s Boy! In fact! I think I still am!

June 26, 2006
7:25 AM


Arlyn Lopez said...

oh..really heart touching..yes..I agree with you its a mixed feeling when u knew that someone close to you will soon be leaving..but dont be sad anyway as you said it will only take 6 months and she will be back again for sure even if shes not around she will always around with u thru her prayers,,and a I guess you can handle things on your own just always pray and ask for Gods Guidance for sure evrything will be ok...

The House Of Puroy Enterprises said...

hi arlyn! thanks for always reading and appreciating my blogs.

and thanks for the inspiring words.

God Bless!

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