Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Yes, I love you but...

Yes, I love you but… I have a life to live. I need to get my life back, there are people who defend on it, three of which are my kids.

I'm beginning to hurt other people. Even turning against my friends and disappointing those who were always there for me.

No, it wasn't your fault really. It was all my fault. My own doing. It was all my conscious choice.

I choose to linger with the pain. I choose to wallow in this pool of apathy, hoping that someday you might turn your head my way and see me hurting. Perhaps you might realize the sincerity in what I am offering.

But it will not happen. It will never happen. My pain is the least of your concern.

You'll never know what I went through… what I am going through.

I thought I had a chance. Really, I thought I did. But I fumbled and everything that I did was erased. You were never aware of them in the first place, so there wasn't really any loss as far you are concern.

I never really stood a chance.

I could have waited a little longer, no matter how bleak my chance is. I can wait longer if I want to… but I'm beginning to hurt other people and it was unfair for them.

Yes, I love you… but I believe I have already done my part.

I need to get my life back on track.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Yet another dream...

Submission of entries for the PhilPop Music Festival ended last May 10, 2012. Right now they are narrowing down the entries to 100, from there they would choose 30, and from the 30 they would pick the 14 finalists who will be showcased in the finals night sometime in July 2012.

What are my chances? 1 to over 1 million! And aside from going against the multitude of talented Filipinos all over the world, the best and brightest professional songwriters of our time are also joining the competition.

It's a long shot, "suntok sa buwan" ika nga. But I would like to think that we actually all have equal chances, and I hope that you can support me and help me pray that I can be chosen as one of the 14 finalists.

Winning the songwriting competition is farthest from my mind. I joined the contest because it's the only channel I know for my song to be heard and hope that somehow it will reach her who inspired me to write the song.

Keeping my fingers crossed.

So help me God.

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