Saturday, January 23, 2010

I want to write

If only I knew that it is writing that I wanted to do earlier, I would have saved a lot of people from trouble. I wouldn’t have wasted anybody’s time, resources, and efforts… I would have just kept myself secluded in my own corner, with my pen and notebook, my computer and my keyboard.

I would love to be just that… uncaring of the time that would pass, nor of the world that evolves around me.

Alas! It’s too late, passion keeps burning but the flame is always being doused… too much of “other” things to do… much MORE important things to do.

And writing… it’s just there.

It is something that you-should only-do-when-you-have-a-free-time-because-you-do-not-earn-anything-from-it-and-it-does-not-put-food-on-your-table-nor-send-your-children-to-school kind of thing.

It’s irritating!

But what’s more irritating than that, is the fact that it is true.

I want to write, it’s the only thing I want to do.

If I would have my way, I would write until my last breath… if only I could.


jan geronimo said...

These other things that take you away from your writing, your passion are the very things that give good flavor, complexity and depth to your written words and stories. So there's a symmetry to it. When the mundane things detract you from communing with your true mistress should it not make you throb with excitement for the time when you're truly free to do as you please? :) Yeah, all I'm saying is you'd be all right. These things have not stopped you before, right? No reason they'd be able to do so this time. You've experience and momentum behind you. Onward, writer. :)

Heather Kephart said...

Then you must do it, Roy! Don't let your daily responsibilities droll it out of you. Keep it up. :)

Holly Jahangiri said...

Roy, attend to the other things with gladness and all of your attention, so that they will let you write without feeling torn between responsibility and your "fun." Strike a deal with them, though: they must give you [an hour a day, all day Saturday, three hours twice a week...etc.] Tell these other things that perhaps, if they are good and fulfilling and make you feel alive, you will write kindly about them. Otherwise, you will show them for the black-hearted horrors that they are. ;) Then jealously guard that writing time you've carved out, and enjoy it without guilt. You'll have built up a store of things to write ABOUT, and it will be all the better for it.

MinnieRunner said...

Your last line Roy is similar to what I am aiming... But for me, twas to RUN :)

I also wanted to write, if you want to know. I dreamed of writing a novel, I bet Holly knows that. Just last night I am already picturing out of writing a short story, an experiment. But, same with you, I've got other things to do. Hope both of us could find way(s) to do the things we really love.

God Bless!

Anne said...

Just like anything else schedule some time for writing. If it's only 10 minutes one day so be it. Maybe next time you will get 30. Don't despair. Go forth and write.

Jena Isle said...

Hello Roy,

That moment always come to writers/bloggers. But as they say, once a writer/blogger always a writer/blogger.

Keep writing it's what keeps us sane.

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